This is mostly just to vent, but I've been slowly coming to the conclusion that I am going to be a single parent (and that I am an idiot who gives people to much of my time). I love my SO, I do, he's sweet and funny and good companionship. Unfortunately he isn't really adult material. We've known about this baby for 6 months (currently 9 months along now) and I've been pressing him to get work so we can save to have a place to live that isn't his childhood bedroom in his parents house (who are the utmost SWEETEST and LOVING people may I add! We just need room, ya know?) because even though I work full time at night I just don't make enough hourly to pay for anything besides my car/insurance/gas/cell and rent (barely, I'm talking will have 36$ left every month after just car and rent, no utilities or baby things or food). So I finally got frustrated and told him he had to go to a temp office today and he just told me no and instead played video games and napped. I'm out of patience and out of time. I'm applying for food stamps and hoping against all odds it'll be enough to feed me (and the baby once he starts eating big food) and that I can get on section 8 and it won't take as long as I've heard it does around here. I hate the idea of having to depend on that but until I can find a better paying job or something I guess that's what I'm going to have to do. Thankfully both sets of grandparents are excited to babysit so I don't have to worry about that while I work. I just wish he would be straight up and honest with me if he has no intentions of helping with the baby so I can plan accordingly, or at least didn't leave me to figure it out on my own. I'm just so stupid for not planning for this sooner, I just really thought he'd get his act together. But I feel like my brain has given up on him, I'm gonna plan as if I'm a single parent and I guess he's just the non serious boyfriend who I only think about if he comes around to have fun with while I have some down time. Any advice on single parenting or just some words of kindness would be greatly appreciated. Anyway though, I'm still so excited for my lil boy to get here