I'm just going to be really honest with you ladies. I am entitled to feel the way that I feel. First time I found I was pregnant was then ending of November I had missed my period so I had tested. All test came out to be positive. At first I was scared and excited at the same time. I was scared because at the time im getting my life together and felt like I wasn't in a good position to have a baby. But then I was excited to that I was going to be a mommy and that God trusted me enough to be ready for a baby. And that weeks went by I accepted the fact that I will be a mommy and getting ready and prepare to bring a beautiful blessing into this world. Well God said other wise I had just turned 12 weeks on January 18 and that same day I miscarried. I didn't know how to cope with it all I can think in my head. Lord why did you take my baby?? what was the reason?? I'm very hurt and that I told him I felt like you did this on purpose to hurt me. If it wasn't meant to be why did you even put the sprit of the baby inside me and why did I become pregnant in the first place. It was my first time being pregnant and all I could do was cry and say did this have to happen to me I wanted my baby. Ever since then I been hearing that some of my cousins and friends are to be expecting and I'm very excited for them. But me I'm hurting deep down inside that everyone else is having a baby but me. It just also hurts and upsets me that God gives people kids that don't even deserve to even have kids in the first place. But why do have to take the babies of people who do deserve them. That's how I've honestly been feeling in my heart. Ever since the miscarriage I have been praying and trying to convince and that God will give me a chance to be such an amazing great mother and all I can do is hope and pray and take physical action and that I will get there and bring a blessing into this world. Babies are such pure and heart warming blessings and miracles 😏😉. I really pray for to the woman who have miscarried or had child still birth I pray that you guys have your rainbow baby's and sunshine baby's let's not give up ladies stay prayed up and have hope. He hears our prayers 🙏❣️ and it will happen for all of us. Don't give up keep it positive 😍🌈🌞 08/02/2019 forever will be with me in my heart 💖💖