So when I was 16 or 17 when I started to get ovarian cysts and one burst that's how I found out, the doctors and my first OB appointment ever, well apparently I had 2 more but where small and they where not going to worry about it. Well I am 20 and my family has ended up removing the left ovarie when they wjere older around their 30s.

Well I have had shitty OBs no joke one slut shamed me when (I was raped a week or 2 after my 18th birthday and he apparently ripped me) and she started to say this in a sarcastic voice (she didnt know i was here due to rape I hated to talk about it because I was very suicidal) "you have something abnormal here um its uh really bad, um then she looks me in the eye with a glare and says you have a tear (she made it seem like he gave me an STD and my heart was pounding so bad for her ti treat me like this!!) I was humiliated the way she acted the girl next to her was glaring when the doc was talking and the doc finally asks, "have you had sex recently?" I mentioned I was rapped and my eyes where watery due to her treatment and it shattered me at that point I felt worthless and I'm a slut. The doctor instantly felt bad after her scene.

Fast forward since then I avoided OBs and I have recently the past 2 months been feeling horrible pains in my left side deep into my uterus/ ovarie area during sex. I am engaged and he knows about my rape incident. I am scared to go and be treated like a hoe again, I've tried to work up a nerve to find a new OB but no luck my insurance doesn't cover them except Mom Doc and that's where I was treated like a hoe. I lost myself when she did that I became an alcoholic and I relapsed and it was a dark very dark era for me. being rapped then slut shamed by my OB and it's just traumatizing. idk what the pain is being caused from and I am 20 now but still scared as hell at OBs.