THIS IS LONG BUT IM BEGGING YOU ALL FOR SOME HELP AND INSIGHT IM SO LOST LOOK AT THE PICTURES PLEASE IF YOU DON’T WANT TO READ.

I was diagnosed with PCOS 4 years ago when I first met my husband because I didn’t have a period for 6 months and we thought I was pregnant or something crazy. Now looking back I wish that would have been the case. I’m now 26 and my husband is 31 we have been not using protection since I was diagnosed and have been talking about how we want a family. This is the first year and a half I’ve been really really trying as far as taking supplements and taking my BBT testing regularly and all with the same ending results. I feel like PCOS has taken over my life a ruined it. My husband now feels like the only time I want to have sex is to get pregnant. Everyone tells me to relax and when you aren’t trying it will happen. I have no control over my body and I don’t even understand what my body is doing. I don’t even know if my husband still wants a family like I do or not. But this whole thing has caused so much stress on us it’s all I talk about and all I think about but I’m scared if I don’t then I’ll miss my only chance. I can’t afford <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> if it takes I’ll have spent all that money on trying and now I’ll have a baby and short on money for it. I have horrible health insurance that doesn’t cover much. So I’m doing this on my own. I checking my BBT with this monster I got from Himama it tracks my sleep and temp when I’m in deep sleep. I’ve been wearing it since after Christmas and I OPK test regularly. I take prenatal vitamins, and I’ve been using a low dose progesterone cream. And periodically take a fertility supplement. I went from have a period once every 9/8/6/4/3 months you never knew when it was coming to every month. But I still feel like I don’t even know my body please please please help me understand some of this stuff. Here are my charts, my tests, temperatures. I’m so desperate. I want to make my husband a father and I think he’s starting to accept it may not happens for us because he’s starting to not mention how much he wants a family anymore.

This is one of my charts that linked to my BBT device last month and this one

Here is another app I use

Here are my tests

Here is another app again last month and this one

Another app

And another

I’m just so lost and discouraged. I’m bleeding heavy which I thought was my period but my CM was super stretchy and I tested positive for ovulation yesterday but my husband isn’t going to have bloody sex with me on a chance that doesn’t even make any sense