It’s been a long time..

Hey ladies. I can forgive other people but I have such a hard time forgiving myself to the point where I’ll feel I don’t deserve anything because I was so lost at one point in my life and I just can’t believe it. It’s so hard to believe it was me cause I’ve spent my entire like being so in touch with myself and prayers. Idk where I went wrong?? I’m having such a hard time.. with the guilt from myself even after people forgive me.. I can’t let it go. But I’m trying