IUD Removal😰

2 years ago, I had a surgical abortion. The day of the procedure, is the same day they inserted my IUD. Because I was already in loads of pain and on pain meds, I did not notice the insertion of the IUD. The pain of the abortion was so intense and that's the only pain I can remember. When girls would ask me how bad it hurt to get an IUD, I had no answer to give, i simply dont know. 2 years later and my man & I plan on starting to conceive soon!! :D now that we are ready, finally.

The other day, I was talking to him about removing the IUD. That's when it really hit me, I started to panic and cry and hyperventilate uncontrollably. I kept crying and my anxiety would skyrocket. It took almost an hour to get me to calm down and breathe properly....

I just panicked. Even typing this out, thinking about it makes me very anxious. I am absolutely terrified. I am scared to have my IUD removed. I cannot bare to have another instrument near my cervix. I flashback to the poster I stared at.. and the pain.. and I gag. Every. single. time. Then I just sit there and everything I pushed back is now brought back into my life. All the physical and emotional pain. And all I want more than anything to is to have another go and have a child with the man I'm madly in love with. But I cannot, absolutely not, stand the thought of it being removed. Which is silly because I still have 3 years left, and I'd have to get it removed anyways. But guys, I'm seriously freaking. I need advice, tips, anything about IUD removal to help ease my mind😰