TRIGGER: Children aid

This is going to be long but please read and tell me what I’m doing so wrong..

My grandma is always talking bad about my motherly skills and my choices I am making for my daughter. It hurts. Well she told my mom that someone needs to call children aid on me. My grandma said “I won’t do it but, someone should” My mom got upset because she thinks I’m doing an amazing job.

My grandmas reasons why she feels like children aid should step in and do something:

- I breastfeed and my daughter just turned 5 months. My grandma wanted me to start giving her food when she was just turning 4 months. So in her eyres I’m not feeding her properly. The boob isn’t enough she said.

- My daughter has diaper blow outs often. Doesn’t matter the size of diaper or brand of diaper. She will have a blow out at least once every two days. I sent my mom, grandma and my best friend a video of me playing with my daughter and during the video she explodes in her diaper and poop everywhere and I started laughing in the video. I don’t buy her the right diapers and she’s stuck covered in poop. I bath her and clean her up and never let her smell like poop EVER.

- My apartment is super hot and my daughter sweats so much. So I put her in little outfits and pjs that are short sleeve when she’s inside. My grandma says “She’s always in barely any clothes. She must be freezing” which isn’t true. I make sure she’s warm enough inside. When we leave the house, she’s in warm outfits and protected from the cold.

- My grandma thinks I sleep way to much. My daughter doesn’t take a bottle so breastfeeding is strictly just boob. Which means I’m the one feeding her during the day and night. I don’t sleep when she’s awake. I take a nap with her when she naps sometimes but, thats it. But in my grandmas eyes, I sleep way to much and the baby is stuck in bed with me when she should be playing and going out.

- When I found out I was pregnant. My grandma said “Make sure you don’t get postpartum because I don’t want you microwaving my grandbaby” And that shocked me because, who says that?? Well after giving birth my doctor diagnosed me with postpartum. I love my daughter, I would never hurt her. I struggle with feeling like I’m a horrible mother and that I’m going to fail her and I CANT be apart from her due to separation anxiety. But my grandma thinks I still might microwave her. Typing that makes me cry. I could never harm my baby girl!!

- She says “You don’t have a routine for Rose and she needs one” I do have one. Sometimes were a little off but, we’re trying. She says my schedule is crazy. She doesn’t need 2-3 naps she thinks. I don’t make her take a nap, she wants too. She loves nap time. Bedtime is between 8-9. She wakes up once during the night and sleeps till 9. I don’t see that as crazy.