Advice!

The first time I found out I was pregnant I was taken aback, distraught and just not ready. I was worried how others would look at me because I got pregnant out of wedlock! And I was disappointed with myself with how I was so far gone and having sex out of wedlock. But moreso worried about how others would look at me, especially those in the church.

So I took the first abortion pill at the clinic and instantly regretted it. The next day I didn’t take the second set and went to the ER they told me it was a chance that I could still lose the baby, but at the time everything was looking okay. A week later my body ended up miscarrying. Which I totally blame myself for.

However, I still stupidly engaged in premarital sex for a period of time and a week after I told my boyfriend I could no longer to continue to compromise my beliefs and my morals I found out I was pregnant again. (We are still 100% celibate). Now there is no way I’m getting rid of this child. And God has truly been working on me with being so focused on the opinions of others (Gal 1:10) But I feel guilty for keeping this child and not keeping the other. And the worst part is that I will be pregnant with this child the month that the other would have been born. And it’s like that month keeps popping up everywhere and other people are having babies that same month. It’s like it’s just more apparent now.

I guess I’m asking for advice on how to cope with it, or bible verses that can help. I’ve cried out to God plenty of times and asked for forgiveness and I know he helped the through the worst of it after I made the decision - he made his presence known in my breakdowns and has even given me peace about it in more recent times.

But I feel like that peace of mind I had about it is dwindling. Or maybe it’s because it’s just coming up soon. I just ask for prayers. I know everything will be alright and that the God I serve will get me through. But anything encouraging would be appreciated.

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Ni

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Let me start by saying I am so happy you found God and have turned your life over to him. Just know God does forgive you for having an abortion. That was never what he intended, but he still forgave you! If you repented of your sins you are already forgiven! You are also doing the right thing by being celibate with your boyfriend. I know it must be hard having a baby during the same month and you have feelings of sadness and guilt but turn to God and give all those feelings to him. He loves you and died for you and took away all your sin. Find comfort knowing your baby is with the Lord now and there is no better comfort than knowing your baby is with Jesus. We can't turn back our pasts, we can't change the sin we have already committed, but we can move forward with a change of heart and repent and have God forgive us of our sins as he forgets about them as well! And it sounds like the Lord has already worked in your heart and has been drawing you closer and closer to him. Keep trusting in Him and following him and giving everything over to him. Also, may I suggest Christian counseling? If you are struggling to move past your abortion and still feel guilt and sadness then I'd suggest going to counseling as this may be tremendously helpful to you. So sorry and I pray the Lord gives you comfort during this extremely hard month for you 💕

Le

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THEREFORE, [there is] now no condemnation (no adjudging guilty of wrong) for those who are in Christ Jesus, who live [and] walk not after the dictates of the flesh, but after the dictates of the Spirit. [John 3:18.] Romans 8:1 AMPC You're not condemned for any wrongs you did before deciding to follow Christ. Don't allow your pasted sins/mistakes to put you in bondage.

Ch

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Wish you had heard about the pill reversal shot back then but im gonna pray for you I’m also going through a hard time I can relate! So happy your trying to make your life right with God so am I! Sending you love ❤️ for your loss and new rainbow 🌈 baby gift weather you raise baby or place him or her in a loving family via open or closed adoption ☺️

Mi

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I will be praying for your Baby that is on the way, I am so sorry that you had to go through that experience it’s not really a good choice for any women to consider.