2 weeks postpartum

I love my family but lately I've been feeling like they deserve better then me. I had a c-section this time and I won't let anyone help me. For the past week my cut has been really red and swollen and it hurts so bad. My other son is one and I still play with him even though I'm in pain and wanna cry. I don't want my husband to think I can't take care of the kids, cause I can. I feel like I need to get a job asap cause I'm not bringing in any income. I just feel as if my family deserves better. All I wanna do is lay in bed and cry. I hate feeling this way.

UPDATE:

I went to my doctor and got told my cut is infected so I'm on a 10 day antibiotic. My friend took my 1yr old for the night and I'm feeling better. Thanks to all of u for ur support 💖