I'm done fretting over whether I can or can't have a biological child. I'm done worrying if there is something internally wrong with me I'm done pretending I don't feel a rad jelly when I see how easy it is for others I'm done burdening myself every month hoping for a positive. I'm giving it all to God. My worries and hopes my stress and pain my emotional whirlpool .It's time to just enjoy life with my S.O. its time foe me to embrace my crazy body and accept that it just isn't my time it WILL happen when it is supposed to so until then I'm gonna enjoy what I can and reach goals I have set myself until then I will accept happiness and love as it comes and be a better me.