Today, I should have been eighteen weeks along. I lost my baby early on, barely even that far along. My first is still just a little baby, barely six months. While watching a show, they brought up a miscarriage subplot and I still don't know how to properly deal with the loss of my baby and almost balled my eyes out. My partner is trying to be there for me but he keeps either snuggling up and saying not to be sad or shoving my son in my face and telling me that I should smile because of my son.

It's not helping and I don't know what would help. I feel lost and empty and a little broken. I'm just missing someone that I've never met before and it hurts so much.

I just need to figure out how to get a handle on this. How not to cry every time the subject is brought up.

My partner and two other friends are the only ones who know that I had a miscarriage. There's no one else that does.