My ex boyfriend snuck over to my house about six months ago. I just want to see him but he wanted more. We dated for three years and I guess he thought it was time for us to have sex. At first it led to me giving him a blowjob. I didn’t mind that I enjoyed it. He came in my mouth and he told me to keep going and give him another one. I kept going but during the bj he said “let’s have sex” I said no and he said yes. I told him I didn’t want to and he got mad at me so I shut up and rode his dick because I was scared of what he would do. I don’t know if this is “rape” but my friend thinks it is. I keep telling her it is not but she insisted that i trust her. Idk the regulations of this so. Any one care to inform me?

The whole time afterwards I cried because it hurt my feelings so much. I didn’t want to lose my virginity that way. I didn’t even take off my shirt or panties. It was horrible. And right after he came he just left out the window.