Feeling a little doubtful😞

Tenelle • Aussie 🇦🇺 TTC 4 Years. Failed FET Feb 2019. 2nd FET 22nd March 2019 SUCCESS! B/G Twins Due Nov 2019 👶🏼 👶🏼

So in Feb I had my first FET with a 3BB embryo and it was unsuccessful. During the whole process I was so convinced it was going to work I never really let the thought slip into my mind that it may not. Obviously when my beta came back negative I was absolutely devastated but I pushed through it because ultimately the goal is to fall pregnant. I’m currently Day 4 post my second FET with two embryos (5BA- was already hatching and 4AB) which are obviously better graded embryos but I’m still finding myself so doubtful and guarded. I want so badly so have the excitement and sureness I had during the first transfer but it feels so impossible 😞 I really don’t know what to do!! 😞 last time the wait for beta was killing me because I was so excited and this time it’s like I have all the patience in the world because I’m terrified of it not working again 😞😞😞