Well, here we go again

Erin • Mama to a little dude, BF for 15 months, TTC #2

It took 2 years TTC and 2 rounds of Clomid to conceive my son. We’ve been TTC #2 for a year now, and I’m on Clomid again.

I have 2 close mom friends. One is 30 weeks pregnant. My second friend just told me that’s she’s 14 weeks pregnant. They both got pregnant their first try. I’m so happy for them, but it’s bringing back so many emotions and feelings of worthlessness that I never really dealt with the first time. And then add to it the feelings of guilt — guilt that I should be content with just my son, feelings of how dare I hope for something more when I have what some can’t.

Or maybe it’s just the hormone pills that are making me feel this way. Just needed to vent.

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Ca

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I get so sad every time I see another friend announce their second or third baby. Even though we have an amazing son already, and I totally get that guilt where you should just be grateful for what you have. It’s hard, and hormones are making it harder. Hang in there.

Ol

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It’s like I could of written this myself. The guilt 😩 oh the guilt.

Je

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I’ve been on both sides. And have 3 babies. But I want to give dh one of his own! Sooo badly!! It’s hard. I’ve watched ppl who started ttc after us get preg & already have their babies. I’m on 2nd round femara. I don’t think I’ll do another tho. I’ll just give it to God & just stop ttc at all.