I am trying to conceive after I had a miscarriage in 2017 after I had the miscarriage and I had to have a D&C and then having another D&C because they left something inside the first D&C was the beginning of 2018 and the second was in May 2018 and then I had to get on birth control to regulate my period in July 8,2018 then I was on the birth control until I got off of them Jan 17,2019 because I was ready to try again to have a baby and then in that month I had a period Before I got off the birth Jan 9,2019 and it lasted for 3 days then after getting off the birth control I had a normal period Feb 15 2019 it lasted for five days after that I started trying again to conceive I've been following when I'm fertile and ovulating I know because the birth control it might not happen not fast it could be three months or a year or more but my issue is this month I have not got my period I'm scared to take a pregnancy test the fact that I'm scared is going to say the negative but I'm scared that it's going to stay positive also I'm scared to have a miscarriage again when I had the last miscarriage I had a miscarriage at 9 weeks and found out at 12 weeks because they said I lost it at 9 weeks because of the size of everything so I'm very scared right now to even take a pregnancy test because of those reasons yes everybody says it's normal to breathe but I'm just so scared scared to take a test is it it's negative I'm going to be devastated but I know I was on birth control and it takes a while sometimes for birth control to get out of your system I get that but if it's positive I'm scared to have another miscarriage everybody tells me to relax and everything but it's just so much that I scared of miscarriage I had I have never had a miscarriage in my life that was my first miscarriage and I have three children already I didn't understand why I had a miscarriage if I had three children already in their beautiful teenagers now and I'm married to this wonderful person that has two teenagers of themselves all together we have five children but we've been married for 11 years and haven't had a child that is from me and him and we really want to have a child cuz we missed a lot in our children's lives and we want to experience.