So freaking tired😞🥺

I don’t know what to do!! I’m so tired of everything. I’m stressed out about everything. I feel like I don’t even want a boyfriend at this point... I love my man to death and i know he does the same and try’s to be supportive in every way, but recently we’ve been going through a hard time and I just feel alone. I will admit I do complain a lot, but I feel like that’s my way of venting and getting things off my chest. I recently started birth control and I’m nervous about the whole weight gain ordeal and honestly I can already feel it. Not even an hour after I eat I get hungry, so I drink a water bottle full of water and that still doesn’t help, for the past week I’ve been going to bed hungry because I know I shouldn’t be eating because I just ate not too long ago. I told my boyfriend about this and all he said was it’s not the birth control, if you watch what you eat and drink water when you’re hungry you will be fine. And I told him that I did drink water and it doesn’t work, and then he said well it works for me. So I said well you also don’t have something in your body that’s fucking you up. And all he said was “yeah lol” he seems to get so mad when I talk negatively about birth control or tell him that my mood swings or irritability are from it. He thinks that I can control it all the time and sometimes I just can’t, and if I’m wrong please let me know but I just feel helpless when it comes to my emotions and feeling now. Like I’m literally crying over this and idk how to feel. I’m just so tired and done with feeling like I’m going through this all alone. I’m the one experiencing all the side effects and feeling down. The least he could do is try to be there for me. I just don’t understand why he gets mad when I list negative about the bc I’m on when there clearly are negatives that cause side effects which can’t be controlled unless they go away!