I had a horrible Terrible vivid dream that felt like i was stuck in for days. I was kidnapped and tortured by a man and 2 woman. I struggle with lucid dreaming ever since i was young and it honestly destroys my life. People think it'd be cool to feel and be aware of what's going on in your dream but it's not. You feel trapped. Anyway i was lucid dreaming and i physically felt every single thing done to me. I tried to escape 3 times in my dream and the last time was successful. We were at a market place and i stole the keys from my abductor and drove away. I keep calling 911 but they weren't answering. Than i got pulled over for stealing a car and the officer brought me back to my abductors house. No one believed me. He made everyone think i was mentally changed. Than this is the most sickening part of it all. My boyfriend was in my dream and started abusing me. i was just sitting there crying so fucking hard begging myself to just wake up. My boyfriend said he tried waking me up but it seemed like i was "stuck" which i was. When he finally woke me up he said i was screaming as if i was dying. He just held me and i lost all control and just cried and cried. I feel so terrified and it triggered my PTSD which i have worked so hard to control to the best of my ability. 2 years ago i was raped by a random guy who entered my house and i fought in court until this past February. He finally went to jail for 5 years and i was able to really move past it. This dream brought me back to the feeling i had when i was standing in front of a jury retelling my story. I felt / feel right now sick and destroyed on the inside. My boyfriend keeps reminding me it was just a dream and non of that will ever happen. But my mind is fucked up right now. It was such a sickening dream how do i deal with this. I've seen so many sleep doctors to try and fix my lucid dreaming but nothing helped. I'm still shaking and aching.

And no my boyfriend has never laid a hand on me so i am baffled as to why in my dream he was abusing me. I look at him as my protector