I'm not usually someone who asks for encouragement or advice or anything from this app but I'm just having a low day

I got out of a two year abusive relationship 6 months ago, the past couple of days I've just been having a hard time with it, I want to hate him but I don't I still love and respect him and it's just been extremely hard to move on.

I'm young so I don't know a lot but I just would really love to know that it's gonna be okay...or maybe just to hear from some of those who have gone through the same thing, when is it going to get better? Thinking about the future is difficult for me because I just feel damaged and like I won't ever be able to hold any kind of healthy relationship again:/