Ughhhh

Just kill me now, please. I come from a culture where fertility problems are automatically blamed on women and couples are expected to conceive within just a few months of getting married. Been married for 3 years, trying for 10 months, and nothing. Meanwhile, my husband’s cousin who got married in late December is already pregnant.

I can’t even muster any joy for her because I’m still resentful at the fact that my period showed up this month despite using OPKs and having sex multiple times during my fertile window.