I want a baby

I’m turning 22 on Sunday and my partner is 26. We have our own place.

He says he doesn’t want a baby any time soon, and he cringes whenever I bring up the subject. He does want children in the future.

We are using the pull out method because I don’t want to be on birth control, I don’t want something stuck up my vagina or hormonal birth controls messing up my body. We have condoms in the drawer if he wants to use them and I’ve told him this numerous times. We use the pull out method perfectly which means it’s 96% effective. Sometimes I wish we could be the 4%.

It wouldn’t destroy our relationship if I got pregnant, financially we would be ok. We’ve been together almost 4 years, we act like a married couple and we both have great families.

I.just.want.a.baby.😫