Having a hard timešŸ˜Ŗ

I left my sons dad about a month ago. I just wasnā€™t happy, thereā€™s too many major relationship issues that canā€™t be worked out without help. Basically our issues are other girls, wonā€™t ever communicate with me, if I do ever tell him whatā€™s bother me he doesnā€™t do anything to change it or he will for a week then go back to treating me the same, choosing drinking with his friends over spending any time with me(we donā€™t have any days off together). Just doesnā€™t make me a priority in his life. Yes Iā€™ve talked to him about everything and he just doesnā€™t care. Well he suggested we go to therapy because he doesnā€™t want to break up. But last minute after I got everything set up, he said he didnā€™t want to go. That he doesnā€™t see how it would help. And he doesnā€™t want to work things out anymore. I know it was best we are not together, but I hoped we could at least try. Iā€™m taking it a lot harder than I thought. And Iā€™m having a really hard time with our son and having split days. Iā€™m getting use to that. But now heā€™s talking about going to see a lawyer together to get everything on paper on how we have our days with him. And I agree, but it just hurts to have to even do this. Also my mom said the other night while I was at the gym my son woke up screaming saying ā€œdadā€ and it was clear thatā€™s what he said. Heā€™s only 22 months old. So that just broke my heartšŸ˜” I grew up with divorced parents who were apart when I was also 2. I never wanted this for my child. I feel as I failed my son. I do wish his dad would work on things with me because I do love him, and I know we could be great together if heā€™d just grow up and realizes what he has. But I know I canā€™t change him. I just donā€™t know what to do. I feel so brokenšŸ’”