This isn't how its supposed to be

I have officially popped as of today and this morning I felt four of the strongest kicks yet from my little one which i was so proud of (sua baby) . Despite how great today has been though. I just want to bawl my eyes out. Everything is so hard and im so tired of it.

My fiances friends are all millwrights meaning they work out of town and are home for weeks at a time, so of course when they come home ALLL of his attention us on them. We only JUST got engaged a few days ago we have done nothing special to celebrate whatsoever and have had zero alone time since the engagement (other than just sleeping next to each other). I am so so tired of being alone thrpugh some of the most exciting parts of pregnancy and just being so sad and lonely in general. I just dont know what to do because with him if i ask for more me and him time we will litterally end up just sitting at home on two opposite sides of the house...