So i used to go to a church revival camp during the summer. Roughly 2-3 weeks out of the summer. 1 week would be for juniors (up to 12 yrs old) then seniors (13 years +). I used to be a counselor at the juniors camp then get the seniors camp for free.

14 year old me, through a friend, I meet a fellow counselor (17 years old) during juniors week. He was super attractive and very mysterious, but his family is well known in this camp and sort of is a leader of the camp. He can't be a bad guy (WRONG) so I added him to Facebook that summer and we talked for a whole year and agreed to actually hang out during camp the following year.

15 yr old me. I go to camp excited to hang out with this guy and get to know him (he's now 18 yrs old) we talk a bit and he insists on sitting in the back of the tabernacle so we can watch the younger kids easier..... while back there he starts talking sexual and telling me to touch myself through my shorts. I tell him I'm not comfortable doing it. He insists no one will see. Tells me he's leaving if I don't. (I REALLY wanted him to like me.) so I rub on my shorts a minute then say I'm done.

Later that week he texts me to meet him outside the tabernacle so "we can talk" so i meet him and he pushes me up against the wall and grabs my ass and kisses me hard. (Im 15, i like the kiss (first time kissing like that) but I did not like the ass grab) so I push him off of me and head back inside the tabernacle.

The next week at seniors camp he sits across from me at lunch table and texts me telling my to touch myself again (UHM NO) so since I said no he starts playing footsie with me... trying to flirt i thought.... he moves his foot up my leg and between my thighs.. i clench my thighs together. "What the hell are you doing?" I text him. His reply "spread and make it easy. Act normal other wise it will draw attention" (It's my second year at this camp, I don't want anyone to think bad of me, plus I did not want to be sent home early and I was scared if my mother heard why I was sent home early she would think I wanted the sexual attention) so i spread my legs and he rubs his toe all over my underwear for a minute then quits. I was disgusted.

Camp is almost over so I try to avoid being alone with this guy...

After camp ends I still like the guy "maybe i can change him" i think to myself... WRONG.

Me and him text for a month or so then he wants to start skyping. "ok no big deal". we statt skyping then he starts asking me to masturbate on camera. I really like this guy, but I dont wanna do it. I told him no and insists on not talking to me or hanging up the skype call if I don't get undressed "If i please him this way he will date me" I kept thinking this over and over. Over the course of 4 months, we created what I thought was a relationship. He would tell me he loves me.. but it always came after the video porn. He manipulated me at 15 years old so satisfy his own sexual desires. I played along because I wanted him to love me. Foolish me.

I maintained a relationship with him for almost 2 years

Ending it at 16 when a friend I confided in turned him into their church council and his church 'made him go to therapy' doubt it happened. I didn't realize until 17 that I was actually molested.. shortly after I made the realization my best friend at the time told me she's actually been talking to the same guy and he's not that bad, "there's no way he did that to you. You weren't molested. Me and him are friends now."

-J