I’ve dreamt of having triplets and seeing them as babies. I’ve seen them a few years later as kids. I’ve dreamt of being pregnant and seeing the fertilized egg implanted in the uterine wall but it disappeared. Days later I dreamt of being in the doctors office and the doctor telling me that nothing major was wrong I was going to be a mom.

Then I wake up and it’s back to my reality of no baby, no pregnancy and an irregular period. Now I’m being told by my gYn that it may be closed Fallopian tubes. If this is the case, it’s not going to something that can be manually done to open such fragile body tissue. If they are open (I pray to God) I can at least start chloride to be forced to ovulate!

Ugh! Why can’t I just wake up and be pregnant? Have symptoms like normal women and take a test to find that I am housing a soon to be human being?