So. I just found out today I am pregnant and I know I should be happy. But. I dont know how to feel. I am a single mom of 3 1/2 year old twin boys. Their dad and I separated due to him cheating. The past few months he has been coming around, owning up to his wrongs and doing what he needs to fix things. Now, he is a great dad to our boys. The bond he has with them is incredible. We have always talked about wanting a little girl. And with that being said. He still has alot of making up to do I was with him since I was 18... and we were best friends for years before that. But this. I am not ready for. Also makes me feel like crap cause I wasnt ready for my first pregnancy either but that's on me cause we didnt use anything to prevent it. I didnt want another unplanned pregnancy which is why after I had my sons. I got on birth control not long afterwards. But they've recently changed my birth control, And I believe that's how those tests became a positive. I have a timer on my phone so I can take my pill.... my mom died suddenly in July with no warning. And today Marks 10 years that my dad died. I'm 24. And I'm scared and emotional and feel like I have nobody to talk to or ask for advice being my family I have is in a different state and I'm the black sheep so it's hard to really speak to them without them going off... then at the same time... considering it's the 10th anniversary maybe they are trying to tell me something as I've been praying for something to show me I'm doing good and making them proud... would like some advice or thoughts on maybe what you humble ladies I've found on here would do if were put in a situation similar... I would really appreciate it...

Sorry for the long post. Ahaa. Needed to vent.😂😩💔