I don’t know where to find the strength to move on from my partner. We just absolutely don’t get along. Things were obviously great, we started a family, he’s changed and I’ve changed.

There is no physical abuse or cheating we just keep coming back over and over and over again to this shitty point where we are both questioning how we even made it this long (5 years). We say we love each other.. it is gut wrenching to think of being without him, especially for the kids, but we can’t hold on to memories or do it for the kids. My heart aches but I know I have to let go.

He will never do it and at times it feels as if he is trying to push me away. This feels like the hardest thing I’ll have to do and that’s over divorcing my ex husband after 14 years together.

I need strength, prayers, good vibes, positive thoughts. I just need to get away from the toxic environment, from the glares, from the hurtful words said on purpose, from the man child that he is.

It’s been two days since we have really talked and normally today as per usual we would make up but I’m keeping my distance. I don’t want to make up. I want to stay cold so that this dies. I’d like to have some sort of discussion tonight.