I wanted to surprise my Boyfriend by doing something I never really do, top during sex. but I’ve never done it “right”. I’ve topped maybe twice, and neither of them turned out okay. It was a mess, and I’ve lost all confidence in my abilities.

He’s not upset about always topping, he says it gives him a workout. And he won’t let me apologize for not knowing how to top, he said the other day that our bedroom is a safe place for absolutely anything, and that I should never apologize for sex, good or bad.

I just want to get better, but I don’t know how. Is there anything any of you could tell me? Because I’m lost, and too embarrassed to resort to porn research.

*****EDIT*****

Cowgirl is what I’m looking for, just couldn’t think of the phrase. Thanks Gina!