Facial hair😩

My facial hair grows so fast and I made the mistake of having it threaded like 10yrs ago. Now I have ingrown chin hairs and it’s just so bad. It’s dark from tweezing and plucking at it.. my self esteem is so low. But I put up a front like it doesn’t bother me.. I’ve always loved makeup but now it looks horrible like I’m trying to cover it up. I just want to lighten it up at least ..