My child’s father has a problem drinking, he said he’d stop but that never happened.. Incidents happened the other night caused me to start contracting he was drunk off his ass to even remember.

We got into it tonight bc I wouldn’t let him drink he took off again and came back drunk but also tonight was the first time he told me to my face im not enough, and he stopped loving me awhile ago.. couple days ago I was having contractions and he wasn’t even there when I needed him, I’m suppose to be on bed rest but he’s always talking suicidal to me and taking off drunk.. am I wrong for looking for him? idk what I deserve anymore I thought I was fixing someone but turns out they seen it the opposite way and thought I was breaking them instead.