I have been dating for 9 or so years now and whenever a relationship ended, I was always the one broken up with. Yesterday, I broke that streak and told my now ex that I couldn’t do it anymore. I didn’t think it would hurt as bad as it does. He was a great guy but lately I haven’t been getting the communication or attention I’ve needed. He’s been really flaky about seeing me and so when I finally got to see him yesterday, I wanted to express my feelings but he was too invested in watching Netflix and brushed it off. I keep telling myself I was just in love with the idea of him. He has money and similar interested to mine but the flakiness and half truths caused so much stress, anxiety, and depression for me... and I just finished counseling a month ago so I thought I was on the uphill climb.

I guess what I’m looking for is someone that understands what this is like..