Tell me, are the good guys really out there? I’ve had such bad luck with men my entire life that I’ve begun to feel worthless and unworthy. I know many people play out the same psychosexual drama but I have really tried and branched out with no success. I want to be in a relationship. I don’t want to give up or be alone.

I was married to a narcissist for over a decade, the father of my kids, who would never change, and cheated and lied constantly...

After we separated, I then began seeing a man who didn’t want a relationship, then tried to start things with a guy who was nice but boring and non assertive. I tried online dating but all the men either couldn’t carry a conversation, came on too strong, or it was apparent they were after one thing.

Is there such thing as a perfect man for me? So I went back to the man who didn’t want to commit because, at least the sex was good and he treated me nice. He said he would be with me if we didn’t live so far apart, but I legally can’t move my kids that far from their dad and he won’t move for me.

Yet...

Lately I’ve been thinking of giving up and going back to my ex husband. I’m struggling with money and stress. He said he’s changed and wants me back. His actions for now have mirrored change. I feel like I can settle until my kids are older. It would be so easier to just go back to him.