So here I am again. Just needing an Avenue to let it all out. Last week, it was confirmed that I had miscarried. And up until now, I was in a good place about it. Thinking, well at least I know it's possible to get pregnant. But now, I feel so depressed. Although it was very early on, it was still my little blessing. I feel like laying in bed and crying all day. I don't have anyone to talk to. All of my friends are already moms and have never had to experience it. Not to mention people who dont know about it keep asking "when are you having a baby? Are you next?". As if it's something I can just wake up one day and turn on the pregnant light switch a boom. I asked my boyfriend last night does he still think about it, and he said no...and then changed the subject. Which kind if hurt. But then again, what am I expecting him to feel? How long should he be sad about it?

I can't eat or sleep. Sometimes I try to think of it as having never been a real pregnancy. I'm lost. Idk how to deal with this. Turning to God for answers. Because this is way harder than I anticipated. My heart is broken.