so the other day me & my ex broke up after 4, almost 5 years of dating ( we’ve known each other for about 8 years ). yeah that’s a long time right ? it is, but at the end of the day that doesn’t matter.. because it was a toxic relationship. 2 years ago when i turned 18, we moved into our first apartment together & that’s when it seemed like everything went downhill in our relationship. we argued all the time, over little things.. such as him playing video games ALL the time, not cleaning up after himself, not spending time together, etc..

like we’ve tried to make it work but nothing worked, i thought about doing therapy together but he didn’t want to.

my other problem with him is his relationship with his mom, he tells her EVERYTHING. especially things that don’t concern her.

i tell him things because he’s like my person, the person i wanna tell everything to, but i don’t wanna tell him anything anymore because he will just run & tell her. like yesterday he told his mom something about me that didn’t benefit her knowing, i asked him why he tell her, he said “because i wanted to” .. like why? she don’t need to know everything.

but beside that, we’re still living together until our lease is up in may 2019. i can’t move back home.. long story short my dad & his mom are a “couple” they have a house together, it’s too many people in that house, i wouldn’t have my own room & plus i work from home so i need a quiet environment.

so i been thinking about my trying to get my own place, but i’m scared no one will let me because i don’t have any credit, but i’m going to try because it would honestly be best for me to live by myself & this will help us finally leave each other.

but i can still tell he loves me & want to be with me, but sometimes two people aren’t just meant to be.