Today we found out my husbands grandmother died and we went to comfort his mother and we usually don’t get along but I feel in this situation I have to be there for her, but one of my most triggered moment is my body I’m a size 8 now and before I use to be a 0 and my sister in law had to go up to be and say her pants she ordered are too big and she said these pants are huge there big they came that way you want them I’m sure they’ll fit you and god did it trigger me I’m deciding with or not to eat today or just fast I know I’m not the same size I use to be but come on my body changed after having my daughters and then I’m like should I even worry about this I have to be there for my husband,it’s difficult having body dysmorphia and suffered from anorexia before having my daughters