I’m giving up

Had a miscarriage last year in feb. Been trying ever since. I’m extremely depressed, I have severe anxiety. Every single test that comes out negative is just a stab in the heart. I try to put up a front for my love, because he wants a child as much as I do, but it’s too much. I can’t do it anymore. It hurts to be reminded by seeing mothers and fathers with their baby’s. I know it’s wrong to feel jealous of them but I am. I really am. Idk what to do anymore. I just had to vent