My boyfriend removed the condom during sex

My boyfriend and I was hanging out yesterday evening and he insisted on having sex. I really wasn’t in the mood at all but I went ahead anyway. He hates condoms but I really don’t care if he does because I’m not ready to become a mother so he has to wear one. I don’t trust him to have unprotected sex with me because we used the pull out method before and ejaculated inside me before pulling out.

I had no idea that he did that and a week later I found out I was pregnant. He admitted that he knew that he came inside of me but he still didn’t say it. I was hurt and angry.Since then I have absolutely no trust in him since that. Even if I’m on birth control I still don’t let him know because I don’t trust him.

Yesterday while having sex I had no idea that he took the condom off until I saw him pull out and started to jack off till he ejaculated. I was so mad because we had unprotected sex and it was within my consent for him to do that and not let me know. I honestly didn’t feel the difference either because I wasn’t even that aroused and it just felt like he was fighting his was inside me. Inside I feel pissed and violated. He wants a child with me so bad and I’m not ready for a child.

I’m unemployed at the moment and he had the nerve to say “ just a thought... since you have so much free time on your hands now would it be a good time for us to have a baby ?” I had to pray and calm down before I responded. I’m trying to grow my business, I still live with my mom and I travel for work since the job market in my country is so horrible. How could it be a good time to have a child and I can’t even get a damn job to keep afloat in these times. I feel violated and uncomfortable about what he did. I know if I spoke about it I would become so upset so I just bite my tongue for a peaceful night. Does anyone understand me ??