Yes Here it cums... But it doesn't

Toya

So in all my 20 years of sex, only one person has made me orgasm! I can feel a big rush almost like a huge urge to pee. But no ocean or sea. I don't know if it's cause I'm scared I'll pee or what. Last time I tried releasing all I had (not holding back) but nothing. I do cum a lot. Jus not as much as my body is telling me. Maybe it takes awhile. ? (I luv clams & fruit.) Any tips???