my sons dad is idk what

my son is 4 next week my son dad hasnt been in his life i tryed hard for it to happen so today i txted him after like two yrs and tryed again see what he would do so i said why u hate me so much he responded i dont hate you and thats all this was three hours ago i told him that why do u treat him like this blah blah... so i havnt heard anything else so fuck it im done done done i will mever try again i will never try for him to be here again he is worthless i thought meybe giv it a shot again but nope fuck em...