Am I right to feel kinda bad?

maddie

So me and my boyfriend have been on and off lately. We’re together right now, but haven’t seen him since we last broke up. We were talking about when we would have sex. (We both lost it to each other) I was telling him that I miss it and he said “yeah Id fuck you, but you don’t fuck me” I asked what he’s trying to say and he said it’s self explanatory. Keep in mind that my family is Christian and my mom found out I was sexually active so she barely lets me see him, but I’ve snuck out to see him and do things still. So every time we get to see each other, we either dry hump or give oral but nothing further but when we have the chance, he wants to be dominant and wanna take control. Im cool with that but that thing is why would he say I “dont fuck hin” when he doesn’t let me try to. When he lets me, I get on top and still make him cum so isn’t that fucking him? Lol but when he told me that, it really changed everything for me because I always looked forward on having sex but now that he feels that way, idk what to do. I’m scared I’m not doing something right or at least pleasing him. Is it right for me to feel that way or I’m just overreacting?