So last year on April 11th (tomorrow) I found out I was going to be a mommy! I took 6 pregnancy tests over a span of 3 days, they were all positive. I just couldn’t believe my eyes. I couldn’t believe That I took a test and it was positive!! I had always wanted to see that beautiful plus sign and I had tried for years for a baby! I couldn’t believe my eyes and from the second I saw the positive test I knew I already loved that unformed child with my whole being! Unfortunately at 6 weeks I woke up one morning for work in so much blood, I cried for the whole hour I was getting ready for work and somehow pulled myself together that morning and tried to keep myself together all day. Later that night I went to the ER and waited for an hour for them to confirm my miscarriage. The sadness I felt in my heart was like nothing else. I never ever thought something like that would happen to me. Why me? Sometimes I don’t understand why God allows women to feel that kind of joy and then have it taken away. I trust His ways Anyways and I still believe He is good. As I come up on the anniversary of the miscarriage, it makes me incredibly sad to think that I could have my infant here with me, he or she would be 4 months old by now and it just hurts, even still. 😔💔

And for anyone else out there suffering from a loss either recently or years ago, I feel your pain! ❤️♥️ you are not alone, you will see better days, and one day you WILL have your little baby in your arms ♥️