Frustrated.

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I'm so frustrated. I've been TTC for 11 months, having all kinds of sex and logging and chatting and just "letting it happen" but month after month I'm not pregnant. I'm about to get my period sometime in 5-20 days (my cycle is irregular) and I can just feel I'm not pregnant. I want to give up, go back on birth control, and pretend this never happened so I can be oblivious to the fact I'll never be able to have children on my own.