Please don’t judge me. I am trying and have been trying and asking for him and I to work on things for years. I’m at a point where I just feel so stuck. He depends on me so much emotionally and mentally and between taking care of him and our son I have lost myself entirely. I love my son more than life but I have has severed depression for years and I still see a therapist. My husband doesn’t believe in therapy and won’t even try couples counseling or even talking to friends. He lives in some fantasy in his head where were the most perfect thing in existence and I am so numb and broken with it all. I haven’t had a partner in years. I’ve had someone who needs constant reassurance with every little thing. Even when he goes to the bathroom or shower he needs praises or he pouts like a kid.

I’m so exhausted. I need a break.