I just need to vent... my grandma passed away.. i didn’t grow up around her but saw her a few times because she was in Louisiana and I was in Cali.. ever since she passed away, I have had this slight sadness. In the back of my mind.. I am also supposed to start my period in a couple days and as much as I pray it does not come... I am sure that it will because it ALWAYS come right on schedule... I just want to start expanding our family by having our first kid... I’m willing to adopt but husband thinks we are too young and should try to have our own first.. it’s just like a weight that I have to carry... idk ladies.. I am also not necessarily satisfied with my current job... I used to love teaching but I haven’t enjoyed it this school year and I pray it gets better but I am ready to get out of the classroom but it feels like once you become a classroom teacher, it’s hard to get out of the classroom because people see it as the only thing you can do! I’m not even thirty.. I shouldn’t be stuck in a position this early! Or at least it feels that way.. again, I know my period is coming and I am prob just an emotional hot mess right now but I still want a beautiful and healthy baby... a career change... a house ... and the ability to say goodbye to my grandma... now both of my grandmothers have passed away.. I guess that is just life.. you have to take the good with the bad.. even typing this at 6:57 instead of getting ready for work helps......