I loved you

So ik ur never gonna see this but these are my thoughts I just wanna have it out there, what was the point of being with me for 8 months just to cheat. Was it solely for sex,did u love me at all was anything that you said true am i pretty, did I push you to cheat?, I really saw a future with you i really thought this was it n you let me believe you were always gonna be around did you even care about me was I ur best friend like you were mine? why her what does she have that I don't ? Do you still think about me...cuz I think about u. Do u genuinely miss me? It hurts how u can move on so easily while I'm here faking happiness pretending it's ok...its not.