I was close friends with these girls for damn near all of high school. January shit start changing for no real reason. If I’m gonna eat y’all gonna eat duh, that’s friendship in my book.

But unfortunately these girls turned out to be snakes and here’s where it started. One of my closest friends was using a guy, he loved this girl for years and she would just play with his feelings and I called her out for it. I decided to be his friend because he was saying stuff that made me fear he would harm himself and i guess she didn’t like that. So from the beginning of the year till December we’re talking and becoming close friends. She (let’s call her J) starts actually different so I ask her what’s up.

J basically tells me that for some reason my existence irritates her and to “do me”. Then she says she done using me and I serve no purpose in her life anymore. Now look y’all...idek what she was using me for and I didn’t bother to ask.

So now we back in school she’s having outburst like “idc about her blah blah blah” and these girls just watching like I ain’t never stand up for them when someone spoke bad about them. I expected at least one of the to say “Aye J chill out” or something. But nah they was silent.

So I took it upon myself to “do me” and cut off every last one of them cause they obviously didn’t care for me like I did them.

Months past before I finally gave in and told them what was up. I let them have it and told them exactly how I felt and that “if it was me and I saw two people I care about arguing I would do something to solve the problem not add to it by flip flopping”

What else would they expect. I mean I would be in the same room as them and if J was there they’d forget I existed and when she wasn’t they’d talk to me to get information for her. Like I’m not dumb tf.

More months past and it’s closer to graduation day. I’m snappy now cause I’m tired of being quiet and wanting them to be happy and feeling guilty for trying to help someone out and better my own mental health. I’m ready to beat her face in but I’m gonna be mature and keep being myself no matter who’s feelings gets hurt in the process.

I’ve made it clear that they absolutely can not redeem themselves and I will never be friends with them. I’ll let them keep the clothes and shoes and stuff but the won’t get another thing from me. Oh and the boy I befriended starting to act different now too. He and J are talking again so now I’m finna say fuck it and let him get hurt again and stop being there when he’s feeling down cause he’s obviously playing with me.

I’ll meet new people next year and at least I’ll know what to look for differently. I don’t need people who make me feel like shit and want to leave when I’m going through stuff.