11 days ago I was spending time with a friend I've known for 6 years. He's the type of guy to confuse a girl and lead them on while already in a relationship. Well when I picked him up from his house I explained to him nothing was gonna happen. I was strictly just gonna do a tattoo on his shoulder and take him home. The tattoo last a few days. On the third day him and I were left alone for a copious amount of time. He began kissing me and touching me and I was terrified. I'm 5'2 and he's 6'8 and almost 350 pounds. I didn't know what to do. I told him to stop numerous times but he didn't. He thought I was "joking." I explained to my boyfriend a piece of what happened but I didn't tell him that my friend had gotten me so afraid of everything that I couldn't say no. He wouldn't think I meant it. My friend proceeded to have sex with me. And was very confused when I had a panic attack while he was. He didn't wear a condom. I haven't spoken to him much sense. I didn't finish the tattoo. And he's probably aware by now that I am not wanting to keep in contact. I don't know if it's my imagination, or the fear I have about this, but for the past few days i have felt tightness and light cramping. I'm terrified I am pregnant. I contacted the women's care center and they told me not to come in until I miss my period. I have no money what so ever to get a pregnancy test. Let alone take care of a child if I am. I am terrified. And I don't know how to handle these emotions. I feel like he ruined my life. And I've felt so violated ever since. This is the first time I have said anything about the unwanted sex to anyone. Mostly because I feel like it was my fault. What do I Do? 😭😭😭