2nd miscarriage

I would think I’d be a emotional wreck right now but I’m not. I’m content I’m calm I cried a little but I’ve come to accept it. I think what makes me really angry is the doctors. I went to er Saturday for spotting knowing my history. They said I measured 5 week 2 day they even saw the baby yolk sac doctor said blood work was fine sent me on my way. Sunday I started spotting but then a baby clot came I thought I’d freak out bc I feel so much pressure this time around and now I’m bleeding not even enough to fill a pad only when I wipe. Went to doctor Monday and obgyn said she couldn’t diagnose it but told me if it was that my body would do its things. Gave me no options nothing just said I’ll see you in a week. That’s what frustrates me bc I have questions yet nobody is answering them. She said well your cervix is still closed I don’t know where it’s coming from I told her about the slight pain but she didn’t do anything but send me home bc she doesn’t know what to diagnose me with. I understand there is nothing medically they can do for us through this tough time but at least give us options. At least make us your patient a human being feel like you care. ...

I don’t think it’ll hit me till it’s completely over everyone else keeps saying they praying for a miracle or it’s normal. Once you go through one loss you just know your body .

Sorry rant over but this rainbow baby had me so happy to only be disappointed once again