I am so tired of this...

Al

I am just so exhausted.

I feel fortunate that I am one of the lucky ones that knows they can get pregnant easily, but after the year I’ve had I am losing my strength.

Last year in July I found out I was pregnant. Everything was going smoothly until my 20 week anatomy scan showed that my baby had severe congenital heart defects and wouldn’t have survived birth. I had to end the pregnancy. It was the most traumatic experience of my life.

My due date just past and a week after I found out I was pregnant again and thought all the stars were aligning. But now I am losing that pregnancy too.

I feel like I’m just not meant to have a healthy pregnancy. It’s just so exhausting going through losses time and time again. And then getting your hopes up and down every time you try again.

I’m trying to stay hopeful but it’s just so hard and I don’t know if I can keep doing this, but I want a baby so badly...