How will you know what cum looks like for women?

I’ve been masturbating for months and I don’t know if I did it right. But my boyfriend wants to see me cum and not surely how I will do that? I’ve searched and read about anything how to cum in google and yet I didn’t find the answer that I am looking for. I know this sounds that he is pressuring me but for me, I want to explore my body and curious about it so I want it to give it a try. There are times that I feel like peeing and I’ve read that squirting is different from cumming. Mostly, the articles I’ve read says that you can cum while squirting but you can squirt without cumming. For me, it is really confusing because most often times when it is going to get feeling good as I think most people term it “reaching their climax”, i have the urge to pee but i’m holding it in as I don’t want to mess in my bed.

But this last few weeks, I relax myself and focusing on my self-pleasure and not thinking of cumming. I would say it feels damn so good and there are milky sticky that coming out. My bf says that I cum so many times but I am not sure if the milky fluid is what cum looks like for women. Because there are times that I just release white transparent fluids and even after I release a milky fluid I still want more and still wet. I tried to watch porn but I never saw the girls cum mostly they are squirting. So please anyone help me to enlighten me.