So my oldest daughter gotten taken by dcf when she was three months because my mom called them on me because me and my boyfriend got into a fight. We were outside my baby wasn't around. So I basically had to fight for my daughter back and my bd family fought against me and took my daughter from me and a few months after she got took I found out I was pregnant by my ex the one I was fighting with. So I'm homeless and pregnant and I was scared that they were going to take my baby when I had her so I went to rehab because I dropped dirty for weed. I stayed there until I had my baby they didn't take her so I went to a halfway house. I ended up leaving the halfway house to go live with my bd and that didn't work out so I moved outta state. I ended up coming back for court for my first daughter and I decided to sign my rights over. I was tired of fighting against the court and my daughter's dad family. So I just let them adopt her. 😕😕😕 Now I'm torn like I don't know if I should be in her life or stay away. And they are changing her name and she doesn't even know who I am. It's so confusing and I'm so sad and I don't really talk to her because I don't really want to talk to those people they literally ruined my entire case. I want to lash out and curse them out but I can't because it'll just dig me deeper so I just stay away. 😕😕😕😕 It just really sucks tbh like I just want my babies 💔😔😔💔 sometimes I just tell people I have one kid because it's hard trying to explain I got my kid taken away😕 and ik that's wrong but I'm embarrassed 😕🙃 I just needed to vent.